Jesse’s Journal – #1:

“For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” (2 Timothy 1:7)

I have had such a distorted self-view of my addiction, and it has led me down a path of avoiding what is necessary, shunning my responsibilities for my actions. Determined to do this on my own, I have avoided step work, and I have avoided people. This mindset has perpetuated the addiction cycle, making me comfortable in my own victimhood.

That old axiom rings true: nothing changes if nothing changes. It’s up to me to take ownership of my actions and make conscious choices to bring about change.

I just have to be open and willing, acknowledging that great transformation is possible. But I have to take those necessary actions towards change and recognize that only I can make those choices. No one can get a recovery for me.

How It Relates To You:

“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.” (Jeremiah 29:11)

You might feel stuck in a cycle where you blame others and avoid taking responsibility. But God has promised good plans for you. He wants to give you hope and a better future. However, this isn’t something that just happens on its own – you need to take action. When you start taking responsibility for your life and make better choices, you’re moving toward the life God wants for you. Real change starts when you stop seeing yourself as a victim and begin living as the person God made you to be.

Reflection Questions:

• In what areas of your life have you been avoiding responsibility?
• What specific actions can you take today to break free from victimhood?
• How might your recovery journey change if you fully embrace personal responsibility?

Scripture to Remember:

“I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.” (Philippians 4:13)

This verse shows us something powerful: with God’s help, we can do hard things – including taking responsibility for our lives. When we’re dealing with addiction and recovery, it’s normal to feel weak and overwhelmed. But God promises us something amazing – through Christ, we’re not stuck relying on just our own strength. Instead, we can tap into God’s endless power. So when things feel too hard – like when we need to face our problems or make tough changes – we can find comfort in this: we don’t have to do it alone. Christ’s power works through us, making possible what seems impossible.

Prayer:

Dear Heavenly Father,

Grant me the courage to break free from victimhood and take responsibility for my actions. Help me recognize that true change begins with me. Give me strength to face my challenges with honesty and determination. Guide me as I make conscious choices toward recovery.

In Jesus’ name, I pray, amen.